It is 3:20a and I cannot sleep. Just over eight hours ago I learned that Bonnie married Bill. Obviously, I am crushed! My hopes and dreams for my future have been destroyed, my faith shaken. Although I know I am only reacting out of feelings, right now I feel like all my time with the Lord this past year has been wasted, worthless and wonder why He would allow this to happen. I know better than that and am certain that, in the big picture, I will be OK. I know He is faithful, will never leave me nor forsake me and that He is bigger than any problem I might face, even this one. For now, it just seems so big and so insurmountable. She told me her parents congratulated her. I admit that hurt. It sounded to me that they approved of her actions, but, after talking to Brian Tuesday morning, I don’t believe that to be the case. I understand she is their daughter and feel they need to be there for her. I only wish she would have seen God bigger than she apparently did as the One who alone can make all things right and new between us. Lord, please be my comfort, my friend, my guide. In you only can I trust. All others around me may fail me, disappoint me, but you are my rock, my stronghold. Please help me in this most difficult time! I need you now more than ever before.
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